Wow. The new year coming in was a whole lot better than I expected. One would even be moved to exclaim, “HAPPY New Year!!” Which tells me one thing. I need to chill or whatever people call it these days…

I spent the day lazing and playing Animal Crossing, since my sister and nephew re-awakened my love for the game during the holidays.

I also got a call from an old friend from high school, who I haven’t heard from in a couple of years. I’m delighted because she’s one of those rare people whose friendship I didn’t fight having for some reason. This doesn’t make her any more special than most of my other friends (whose friendship I fought having, because I had trust issues even back then), it’s just I have no idea what it was about her that made me trust her enough to be more completely myself.

I think it’s because she told me off directly during our first encounter. We were in junior high, and I was still trying to find my place so I put my foot in my mouth and made a stupid comment about her being caught cheating on a test. She told me off and I immediately apologized because I knew I was wrong. I don’t think we became friends until high school, but there was always a note of honesty and candor in our friendship. I knew I could count on this person not to suck up to me, or to agree with me to my face and disagree when someone with a different opinion was around in typical high school sheep-like mentality. She told me when she disagreed with my thought, which was something I completely respected. We pretty much said anything. We formed a two-person, “We hate fakeness” club. And we made our calculators talk to each other in Trig and then the next year in Calculus. Their names were Mr. Calculator and Sheila. (don’t ask) Ah the memories…

I wish I could be completely honest with everyone I encounter, but now I’ve accepted that I really can’t…hence the last post about not talking about the bad stuff or important stuff in my life at least. (Remember the blog is a different matter completely.) Eh it makes sense to me… I must accept that this is a world of illusion and superficiality. Small talk and chitchat are the ways to be socially acceptable. And I SOOOoo want to be socially acceptable…I’ve gotten too old to keep up that rebellious crap. I’m too tired to fight the power. Go young folks…I pass the torch on to you to become the next generation of socially disabled misfits… I see you running… Come back here, if you know what’s good for you!!!

I made chocolate chip cupcakes with chocolate frosting. I notice that when I’m fairly content and comfortable with life, I bake. I don’t eat it all–most of it ends up in the trash because I don’t want to get fat. Maybe I should find a soup kitchen to give it to. Anyway, I like that baking feeling.

So today was a good day. I didn’t even have to use my A.K.

If anyone out there wants to trade friend codes on Animal Crossing…let me know somehow.